Personal: Solar Return Year

My birthday was last week on November 29th. As some of you already know, a solar return period is what you expect for a given year. The year lasts from your birthday to your next birthday. Take for example my birthday. My solar return lasts from 11-29-2011 to 11-29-2012.
Last year a major theme in my chart was the 5th house. As many of you know about astrology, there are many meanings to the 5th house as astrology can manifest in many ways. The 5th house can be about children, or creativity, or love. I did not have children, nor was I super creative. I only wrote one book. I tried to write, but it wasn't coming easily to me. I started a new relationship last year with planets in my 5th house ( NN, Sun, Venus, Pluto ). With Pluto there, it has not been a superficial relationship.
This year is going to be a little different.
First things first...
1. Solar Return Asc in Libra. ( Natal Pisces ). According to this, I'm more likely to be sociable this year. I'm not going to lie; I for sure have my doubts. Perhaps I will be more outgoing, but I will never be a social butterfly. Or perhaps I will like how I look more, or try new styles of clothing.
2. Solar Return Moon in Aquarius, 4th house. ( Natal Leo, 6th house ). Since I have my natal in Leo at 21 degrees, I have a very weak opposition to my solar return moon. With Solar Return Moon in Aquarius, you have a year that is more objective and less emotions oriented. However, there may be more of a need to find the truth ( Aquarian truth different than Sag truth ). Science matters might be interesting this year. I might want to try new things and be connected to humanity in some way. Emotional issues that bothered me this past year might not bother me so much this year. However, the Moon falls into the 4th house. Aquarius and the 4th house of family, roots, pregnancy, nurturing do NOT mix. Why so? With Moon in the 4th house, these Aquarian energies are concentrated here. Will it be a sensitive year? Will I move again?
3. Solar return sun in the 2nd house ( Natal 9th house ). The sun is a very general theme of the solar return chart. What I mean to say is that it is the general theme of the year when you look at it. In this case my general theme is acquiring possessions, buying things, making money, etc. I probably will want to make myself financially stable, or it will be extremely important to be financially stable. A good time to spend money on something valuable, but not squander money. I should show some discretion. Also, self esteem and worth will  be an important factor to the year. So, yes money and self worth will go hand in hand this year.

** I have noticed a 2nd house trend since 2009 though. Money has been of importance. This also showed in last year's solar return chart with another planet there, also in my progressions and transits since 2009.
4.  Sagittarius North Node in the 2nd house ( Natal 12th house ). Quit worrying about other people's money. Go out and make your own. Acquire your own goods. Develop self worth. Higher Education will  be an effect of self worth.

5. Sag Mercury in the 3rd house ( Sag Mercury 9H natal ). Learning energies will be broad minded and tolerant, as well as wanting to analyze and expand upon ideas. That in itself is an easy thing for me to do since I have Sag Mercury 9H natally. I love writing 10-15 page papers. I love picking a topic and analyzing it as well as expanding upon the idea. I love picking my own research topics. The 3rd house is all about the details, minute analysis, facts, figures, left brained. Writing will be important in the coming year, but with a fun Sag flair. This Sag Mercury will need to get used to facts, details, and evidence analysis. Makes sense  because its crunch time and I will finally be a college senior. Should be a good academic year, however. I definitely need a good academic year.
6. Capricorn Venus in the 3rd house ( Scorpio Venus 8th house natally ). Love wise, this year will build commitment, loyalty, and I should be more cautious. I should also not be wishy washy or gushy, or get my hopes up. I will need to be more realistic concerning love. In the 3rd house, this will manifest in education, learning, writing, siblings, travel, etc. I will have a love of learning,  I will be loyal to what I am learning, I will love to write, I will love to make short trips. Good year for education if I work hard.
7. Capricorn Pluto in the 3rd house ( Scorpio 8H natal ). Pluto in the 3H is usually indicative of a communication style that is intense, direct and sometimes brutal. Other people may not like what I have to say, or maybe they do because I come off as so cool. I don't know. I will take on some interesting short trips that might change the way I think. This year is supposed to change the way I think, the way I approach learning and academics, or perhaps I will take these more seriously. Not take education for granted.
8. Solar Return Neptune in the 5th house ( Natal 10H ). This is a year where I might be more romantic and idealistic. This can be good and bad. I might show heightened sensitivities to my boyfriend. He may enjoy it. On the negative side, I might become delusional when it comes to my romance. Might idealize my boyfriend into what he is not. I will need to have a clear image of what he really is in my mind. I can not self decieve myself. In severe and extreme cases, this indicates cheating, because one person is not happy and is self deluded. It could be the native or the partner.
9. Solar Return Taurus Jupiter in the 7th house. ( Natal Gemini/2H ) If Jupiter is said to be in a mutable sign, there is an indication of moving on in a relationship since mutable signs are dual oriented. Not always though. Mine is in a fixed sign of Taurus; Like Scorpio, Taurus can be possessive, but they are loyal and stick it through. Jupiter in the 7H is indicative of good fortune in new business partnerships, romantic relationships and it is even indicative of marriage! ( Although I am not getting married this year LOL ). In my case, I hope that I have favorable connections between me and my boyfriend.
10. Solar Return Virgo Mars in the 11th house ( Natal Aries/1st house ). Although it's easy for me to show frustration and anger on an everyday basis, this year I hopefully cool down a lot. In negative cases, Virgo Mars might indicate a restless, nervous energy. My anxiety could get worse in the coming year. In the 11th house this manfiests in friends and networks. Maybe I will be forced to join an organization and meet new people.
11. Solar Return Saturn in the 1st house ( Natal 10th house ). This is a year I will need to be more responsible. It is a year that I will mature. I will need to show discretion and have self control. This is directly opposed to my Jupiter in the 7th house. Self discretion and control verses demands of others?
A few notable aspects in the chart: ( Not ALL the aspects. Just ones that caught my eye )
Mars/11H square Sun/2H: Mars square Sun is usually indicative of your ego feeling conflicted. You might show anger and frustration. In Virgo, I might not express this out loud. It might manifest in anxiety and control. With houses concentrated, an organization might exert some form negative self image onto myself, but I will need to be resilient. I have an idea of what this might be.
Sun/2H trine Uranus/6H: I will want to be more independent. I will unlikely enjoy the restrictions placed upon me in my current job. Honestly, I want to find a new job now, and perhaps that will be the case with Uranus in the 6H.
Neptune in the 5H is positively making aspects to Jupiter and Saturn, which are in houses of 7 and 1 respectively. This is an indication of perhaps idealism concerning all areas, but not self deception. If there are problems in romance and love, these can be worked out. Benefit of the doubt given. ( BF and I have synastry aspects that are good, and a decent composite chart. ).
Neptune making negative aspect to Sun in the 2H. Romance/idealism in conflict with ego/self worth.
Jupiter-Saturn in houses 1-7: Need to keep a good relationship and think of others, but also balance the needs of myself and show maturity. I could have issues with problems of over consumption and then self denial of certain goods. Moderation will need to be exercised this year, even if its hard. Balance the two. Personal limits might be hard to be seen,but they will be seen.

In General:
A main theme in the chart is the 2nd house, of money and self worth as well as values.

Another main theme is the 3H. This year my way of thinking may be changed or altered to some degree. School and academics should go fine this year. I might pick up on writing again.

Astrology & Panic Attacks/Anxiety Part Two

A few days ago I wrote on some of the basics of panic attacks on both blogs. A few people have commented on my blogs telling me how they also have problems and listed the placements that they think are important. Yes, Virgo or Gemini rising can also indicate a restless, nervous energy, but there also needs to be other factors as well. We can't go by that alone,but the people  had other things going on with their Moon as well. Uranus square Moon can be very much linked to bad anxiety.

Personally, I have Moon trine Uranus. I think having Moon-Uranus aspects are pretty good and at least I have the trine,but I am a restless person. As a child and teen, I would pace around my house with racing thoughts. I could do it all day and my family just loved to make fun of me. My sister and mother have Moon-Uranus aspects; my mom with the trine and my sister with the sextile. The sextile is similar to the trine, but it isn't as dymanic or strong, and I don't think it would produce anxiety problems, unless there's something else going on.

I was diagnosed with anxiety at 16. I was not having panic attacks, but I was still in that stage where I paced around my house and thought. It was almost really bad, but it did keep me from weight gain! ( I ate a lot of fast food at that point. ) I didn't have my first panic attack until I was a senior in high school, but over the years the panic attacks and anxiety have gotten worse each year. This past Spring, they were the worst they had ever been. I would get them multiple times per day and I would have many bad symptoms like: chest pain, fast heart beat, muscle numbness in my legs, facial and neck numbness, a lump in my throat, and shortness of breath. Those are the symptoms I usually get and when I have the attack I think I am dying.

I had a spur of panic attacks earlier in the Fall, but they lasted maybe a month and I had them a few times a week. Whenever I would get an attack, I would get so light headed I felt the ground was going to collapse on me. This past summer I had some problems and when I would go outside in the heat it would get worse. I was always afraid I would pass out in the heat ( I never did pass out ). I never had such bad heat intolerance.

But yeah I haven't even been to a therapist yet, but I do need to. Especially before the summer, since I now have an irrational fear of the summer heat.

Here are some of my placements;
Leo moon in the 6th house
Moon/6H trine Uranus/10H
Moon/6H square Pluto/8H
Pluto in the 8H
Virgo Lilith ( Lilith is said to be the dark side of the moon, but I don't know how much this matters. It might... idk )
Virgo South Node 6th house ( South Node represents our old tendencies, old talents, what it's easy to fall back on. Virgo is associated with anxiety and restlessness. With a Pisces NN in the 12H, maybe I need to learn how to chill the fuck out? I don't know how to chill out! )
Mars is my dominant planet and it's in the 1st house. Mercury and Jupiter are tied,and are up there when ranked by astro.com

With Mars as my dominant, I am a person who sometimes gets more angry when I am anxiety ridden. Sometimes my road rage gets worse. I try to get better with that. Haha.

Astrology & Panic Attacks/Anxiety Part One

This is something that has interested me for a while. As a person who has been suffering from panic attacks and extreme anxiety since my senior year of high school in 2008, this rings home to me.

There are many ways this can manifest. ( And again, just because you have this problem and your natal chart shows it… that does not mean you are doomed for the rest of your life! you CAN get help and can overcome this! )

First, we look to the Moon. The Moon is the most sensitive parts of us. It is what is deep inside of us, our emotions, our stability, our needs. Obsessively controlling our emotions can lead to all sorts of bad things… like anxiety, depression, apathy, substance abuse, eating disorders, obsessive compulsive overeating, drinking, cig smoking… among many others. We can control how we react to emotions, but we can not control how we feel.

Moon in Gemini and Moon in Virgo are two moon signs that are constantly restless, always thinking and have nervous energies. However, all moon signs can have panic attacks and anxiety.

Here are some ways anxiety and panic attacks can manifest in a chart:
- Moon in the signs ruled by Mercury, Gemini and Virgo
- Moon in hard aspect to Mercury
- Moon in hard aspect to Saturn ( Saturn represents fears )
- Moon in hard aspect to Pluto ( Pluto will represent deep fears and deep anxieties, rooting in our past and past hurts. These are irrational fears. )
- Moon in hard aspect to Uranus
- Moon in soft aspects to Uranus, Mercury, Pluto and Saturn can also produce restlessness and anxiety, especially if it is to Mercury and Uranus.
- Moon in the 6th house, Pluto in the 6th house, Mercury in the 6th house, Uranus in the 6th house
- Moon being the ruler of the 6H and making an aspect to Uranus, Saturn Or Mercury ( Like if Cancer is your Moon sign, then Moon is the ruler of your 6H )
- 4th house, 8th house and 12th house placements. Saturn/Pluto in any of those houses, making aspect to the Moon or Mercury can be telling. The ruler of your 6H too.

Anxiety can lead to panic attacks. You can feel anxiety without the actual attack, but anxiety in small doses can be good. It helps get the job done, and it helps you stay focused.

However, when it comes to be too much, you may start to feel restless and shaky ( Mercury energies ). This can lead to panic attacks:

Some hallmark symptoms of panic attacks:
- shortness of breath, feeling like you have to breath more than once, or feel it go through your diaphragm
- fast heart beat
- feeling jittery/shaky
- feelings of impeding doom or death. Some people are extremely afraid of getting sick and dying. ( I am one of them )
- Numbness of neck or face, as well as legs and hands
- Chest pain
- Tingling in arms and feet
- Vision problems. You may become sensitive to light, or you may get tunnel vision.
- Stomach problems, or upset stomach. Stomach aches. That’s because there are a nerve plexus in your digestive system.
- Nausea
- Feeling faint, like you’re going to pass out.

There are more, but that’s what I can think of now. Everyone is different and feels different symptoms. If you feel any of them, it is wise to see an actual doctor to rule out  heart problems or neurological problems. Most people who have panic attacks have been in the ER a few times and when  you go there, they do tests on your lungs and heart to rule out stuff before going to anxiety. They usually know who has anxiety and who doesn’t.

** NOT A DIAGNOSIS! This is intended for people who have already been diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder, or who have been in the ER for panic attacks. If you have not been diagnosed and think you have a problem, this is only a guide, and you should seek help before it gets worse!

My Nana: The Bestest Lady of All Time

My grandmother died 5 years ago on November 12th, 2006. Her birthday was November 6th, 1944. So if she was still alive now she would  be 67 now. Her death was greatly surprising. She was having bad knife-like pains in her legs and she did get help for them,but it was hard for doctors to make a prognosis. She died suddenly on the 12th of November when she went downstairs to go to the bathroom and suddenly couldn’t breathe and then dropped dead.

There were signs though beforehand and two weeks before she died I had a bad feeling about it. I remember saying “She needs to do something or she’s doing to die.” My sister told me that I was beaing mean, but I stated I was telling the truth

 I do believe her death could have been prevented with swift diagnosis, rehab, and weight loss. Obviously it would have been unpleasant for her at first. She might have been in the ICU for a couple weeks and then into rehabiliation services, but over a few months ( if she was treated accurately and swiftly ) she would have gotten better within a few months and would have returned to her normal state.I  could be very wrong though.
My grandmother was obese and was having problems losing weight. She also had heart problems. Even a few months before her death she could not finish walking through a park. She had to sit down a lot because she was short of breath.

At the time I didn’t think much of it until two weeks before she died and she was at the hospital a lot. It seems like it should not have been a surprise at all she died, but it was. All the signs were there and it could have been prevented ( or maybe not )

My grandmother was a good lady. She was generous, outgoing, fun loving, kind, and compassionate. She was a Scorpio sun and Leo moon. I’m also a Leo moon. My grandmother and I had a great relationship. We understood each other. They say that your moon sign may represent a mother figure, and my grandmother was often more of a mother figure to me than my mom. My mom’s moon is square to mine, and my grandmother’s moon sign is Leo.

I remember my grandma saying her birth time before, but I only vaguely remember. I sent her birth time at 10 am because I knew she was born sometime in the late morning sometime in 10/11 hour. ( I think? ) Her chart isn’t as accurate but some placements do make sense. Her Jupiter in the 9H indicates that she traveled the world and had a good education. My grandmother with a Sagittarius rising ( athletic and toned when she was young and loving travel, education, teaching, and culture. But when she got older she became overweight and sometimes overindulged. ) and a Venus in the 1st house. Even as an overweight person, people complimented her on her beauty. When she was young, she was extremely beautiful. In many people’s opinion;  not just mine.

My grandmother had a Scorpio Mercury in the 12H. She was a person of great intellectual depth and she considered herself deep. She was outgoing though, but she was not superficial by any means. She was religious though ( Jupiter  and Chiron in the 9H ) and spiritual with Mercury in the 12H. ( Often 9H represents religion and 12H spirituality). She was really into spirituality, even some of the bad parts. For a while, she was interested in demonology. But quit because she didn’t feel right about it and weird stuff started to happen to her. She told me stories of how a cat talked to her in that low voice after she taught a class about that stuff.
My grandmother always warned me about that stuff.

My grandmother was very emotional with her Moon in the 8H. Sometimes she was very irrational though, but it was out of good intentions.

I could go on, but I’m not. Maybe Ill write  a part 2.

Mars transiting my 6th house

Mars has been transiting my 6th house since the middle of October, so it’s  been almost a month.
I’m sick. Not surprising considering it IS November and it IS getting colder, and the air IS getting drier. However, I survived Fall 2008, 2009, and 2010 without getting the flu, viral sore throats and strep throat. I got a couple mild colds that lasted less than 48 hours.

In June of this past year, I had strep throat for the first time since I was 16. However, Mars was transiting another house. In September, I had the cold and another viral sore throat. The cold was worse than the mild sore throat. What scared me about that was there were white patches on the tongue. I probably could have gotten away with not going to the doctor.

This past time, Mars IS transiting through my 6th house, and I had a strep-like sore throat. You know, the one that hurts like there are knives in  your throat. Yeah, and I was having a hard time sleeping and swollowing. What prompted me to seek help was that I was having mild difficulty breathing, but nothing too too serious. I went to the doctor and the strep was negative. So I was diagnosed with viral pharyngitis with really bad swollen tonsils. It was the tonsils getting so big I was having a little of a hard time breathing last night.
Mars in the 6H can be indicative of getting sick. But we can get sick at any transit too. However, Mars in the 6H might indicate a series of infections, or an infection that is worse than the other ones you normally get during the course of a year. It also depends on aspects Mars makes. Most importantly, don’t forget to wash your hands. Astrology is only limited.

Mars transiting the 6H can also indicate a time in your life when you have a heavier work load ( me ), when you might be searching for a better job or actively searching for one if you are umemployed ( I was searching for a seasonal second job but no luck. ), or if you take charge of your health in a good way. Mars transiting the 6H also is not a prognosis that you for sure will get sick. It could also manifest in the OPPOSITE way.

A packed 5th house: A life of creativity and self expression

I think people who have many planets in the 5th house are interesting. In many ways… I’m not a person who has a packed 5th house ( most of my planets fall in the 8H, 9H and 10H, which is true that those houses are an emphasis on my life. )

The 5th house represents love affairs and romance. Dating. But it also represents children, meaning how you view children in general and your own children. I also think it is possible to see what children are in your life by looking at the 5th house… IN A GENERAL WAY OF COURSE! ( Transits, solar return placements, and progressions to the 5H can also indicate how your children < or children whom you watch in a daycare or school setting > act and behave during that time. ) The 5th house also deals with creativity and the arts, as well as self expression.

You can look at “Planets in the 5th house” blog I have from my archives. I am not going to list what individual planets mean, but you can find it on my blog. I wrote it earlier this year.

When someone has a packed 5th house, it means that 5th house matters are important to them or have an emphasis on their lives. One person with a packed 5th house might be all into theatre and drama, and might be a dramatic person! Another person with a packed 5th house might be creative, but puts all their energies through children, either their own or other peoples. Another way this can be is a musician or artist, who is all about freedom of self expression. Or it could be the person who is an idealistic romantic, who likes to have a good time and date around. Or a MIXTURE Of all of the above! Who knows?
Anyway, my boyfriend has a packed 5th house. He has his Cancer sun in the 5th house, which shows his ego is aligned with self expression and creativity. It is the core of his personality. My boyfriend isn’t very Cancer-like though. He has a Capricorn Moon and I see his moon sign a lot, as well as his Leo Venus.


His Leo Mercury is in the 5th house. Leo Mercuries are loud and proud… usually and to a point. My boyfriend has Mercury opposed Saturn, which does make him reserved in communication and sometimes he gets nervous when it comes to that, especially when younger. As he has gotten older, he told me he has been more outgoing and enthusiastic. I see his Leo Mercury in action when someone pisses him off at work and he has to tell EVERYONE about his ordeal. ( Sometimes it is annoying, and my Sagittarius Mercury/9H is like Who cares? ) My boyfriend is very right brained ( Mercury the planet of intellect in learning in the house of creativity and self expression ). He has always been good at art and music. He learned music VERY well. He is PROUD ( Leo ) of what he does.

His Leo Venus is in the 5th house. You might think this indicates someone who has many many love affairs and many many children. His Venus does make some stress aspects as indicated by his chart. My boyfriend can be a typical Leo Venus.. he likes to shower me with praise and he is very affectionate, but you would never get that if you first meet him. This indicates that he loves art, music and self expression.He really loves music.

Lastly there is an unaspected Chiron in the 5H. Chiron in the 5H shows healing from children, love/romance, and creativity. I can say that is probably true for him. He was a late bloomer in love, like myself.
Other people with a packed 5th house might find themselves highly creative, but how this plays out depends on planets.

Happy Halloween Eve

I haven't written any astrology posts in a while, but that's because of working, school, and just everyday things in my life. I haven't even been posting on Yahoo! Answers for a while.
I am still thinking of some good things to blog on:

Here are my ideas:
- More of analyzing charts. These are people in my family and those closest to me.
- Astrology of eating disorders.
- Transits ( general and personal experiences with them ).
- Your work/career life and how you can see that in your own chart.
- Moon signs.
- More synastry, but I gotta think of some.
- Astrology of anxiety and panic disorders. ( and personal experiences thereof. )
- Venus signs.

That's what I have right now. I hope to get the motivation to write more.

Have a safe Halloween.